Did you vow to “start your diet on Monday?” Or maybe like me you vowed to start something else today? Well it’s almost dinner time and I’m just getting to mine 🙂 I made it a goal to start being consistent with blogging and posting. Over the past few weeks I kept telling myself I’d start the following Monday but didn’t get organized enough to follow through. Last week I tried hard to prepare and even with that I’m late getting this posted.
I was a bulimic, compulsive eater, food addict during a few phases of my life. First, as a teenager when hormones & cravings kicked in – I developed an insatiable desire for junk food. Then started emotional-eating. Then my body got completely dependent on the sugar, chocolate, and simple carbs / starches.
So whether I was emotional or not I was just hungry and craving junk all the time. And I do mean ALL. the. time. I could never make myself throw up but if I could have I’m sure I would’ve been doing it. In college I discovered I could purge in other ways: I started using laxatives and developed what I later learned was a legitimate eating disorder…
So I’m sitting here at my desk trying to decide whether I should eat and I’m totally having a revelation.
I’ve had this discussion with myself a million times. “Should I eat? And if so what?”
But this time it’s different.